PAIRING - Konzen/Goku
RATING - PG
FANDOM - Saiyuki Gaiden (slightly spoilerific? I'm not sure, more of my interpretation)
Summary - "When did he lose it?"
He could hear his life. It was like the descent of raindrops against his body, draining away his strength. Like an eclipsing drought, he felt it
slip past him, bit by bit. He struggled to grasp something, anything! Consciousness seemed like an impossible task. He choked out more
blood and laughed grimly. Impossible, what a funny word. He would have never used it before.
Gods, he needed to get a grip. This cynicism, this biting in his skin, the clawing of his stomach as the blood and guts kept spilling out like a crimson waterfall decorating the white tiles of Heaven’s floor. He couldn’t handle, couldn’t understand why he wanted to live so badly when before he believed dying was a pleasure, a gift, a means away from the suffocating boredom that choked him worst than his scarred throat.
Was it regret? Was he regretting? Nonsense. He…
Slowly, he crawled a little, spurting out more guts onto the floor. He grimaced in pain and looked up. He saw feet, two small feet laid
out in front of his eyes. He saw shackles around the ankles and he knew who it was.
If he was struggling before, he was literally on the point of collapse now. He pushed himself onto his knees, clutching his stomach and approached the comatose boy.
Sleeping, the child was sleeping on his bed again. He groaned and kicked the boy slightly in the hopes that he would wake up. The boy didn’t stir and he groaned again. Finally, he pushed the boy slightly to the right side of the bed and he settled onto the left. Slowly he let his eyes
drift into the darkness of sleep. But he watched the boy from the corner of his eyes, just in case the boy fell off the bed.
He draped his hand over the boy’s stomach and closed his eyes.
It was quiet.
Goku hadn’t stirred. He smiled and coughed in his hand. More blood on his hands. It wouldn’t be long until Li Touten guards came in here and took him. Took Goku away to…whatever fate Li Touten planned for him. He frowned and he gently pushed the hair out of Goku’s eyes. His stomach heaved slightly and he knew he was losing. No, he had lost a long time ago. Lost it all when the minute the boy stepped into
Heaven and took him by the hand. It was ironic and it was not. The old hag probably knew from the start.
If he had known, would he have turned him away? Would he have refused to be his Sun?
Stupid, he thought as his vision blurred, what kind of stupid question was that? He sounded like a melodramatic fool, dying like this.
He was getting Goku dirty by pouring all his guts onto him.
He reached out an unsteady hand and gripped Goku’s hand tightly. It seemed too little to matter and yet…
When the guards came to take away the heretic, they spent five minutes prying the cold dead grip of Konzen’s hands.
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