March 13th, 2007

water seeping

a beautiful letdown, one's breakdown...

So, I cried twice today. The first one wasn't memorable, the second one was because I cried in front of Ms. DeFlavis.

Needless to say, I wasn't very happy with myself. But it helped a lot. I was able to get this invisible load of my chest and I think I can actually talk to Ms. DeFlavis without twitching and feeling miserable.

She said I had a self-esteem problem. I know I do. It's an ingrained thing and I have a hard time trying to get rid of it. So, at best, I try to ignore it.

I'm being vague.

....

Anyway, I'm better now. Less likely to burst into hysterics. Thanks. I really appreciate you guys being there. It helped a lot.

What amused me the most was when Ms. DeFlavis said she was jealous of my friends. Clearly, we are awesome.