September 22nd, 2009

water seeping

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I have realized that any deep or vaguely depressing thought I have about myself is automatically turned into some kind of parody in order to keep myself wallowing. Which, in hindsight, is a good thing! On the other hand, I think I end up wallowing away and I'm like that is just not on, brain.

But anyway, today was a low-key day of hating myself, feeling like I'm a self-fulfilling prophecy of doom and failure and not getting that clue that is super obvious to everyone else (One day I will not be dense and figure out things for myself... yeah no). Whatever!! I think I'm going to watch Star Trek the Voyage Home now which has San Francisco adventures and McCoy yelling at people. Good times.

(gosh how do you people put up with me, I can barely put up with myself)