I need to work harder, I need a focus because I have to......get into new schools. Because....
I'm so scared. And so worried. Because I'll let people down. And myself.
And if I break. And I fail.
I don't know what happens from there.
I don't want to lose myself.
I...I want to become a great writer. That's what I've wanted to be since I was a kid. That's the only thing I've ever wanted to be.
And if I fail......