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I'm surprised I didn't blow my top at Angy today.

I'm surprised she still acts like a ten-year old and she's graduating. Her view of the world is so...limited. She can't see past the edges. She thinks she's cynical, but she's very naive.

Today, we had an Easter assembly. And when the end was coming, she said 'Stupid preachers'.

Now, I'm Christian by birthright and despite the fact my parents don't really care what I thought about religion doens't really matter. She shouldn't diss it like that. Even though we were all pretty annoyed with assemblies, does not mean we go and diss the religion.

It gave me a glimpse on how idiotic she can act over the simplest of things.

She needs to learn patience. If she doesn't learn that soon, she's going to find the real world a very harsh place.

Also, I'm Christian. Doesn't she realize she's insulting my religion? I happen to find some peace in Christianity that other religions don't give me and I never diss it, despite my views and upbringing.

Growing up is hard and I grew up a long time ago. But she needs to do it soon.

...Or maybe it's just me. I have been rather stressed lately and finding it hard to concentrate in class. I have a therapy session scheduled today with one of the concilors. And I'm snapping at her more, but I feel that...even though she apologixed for the incident some time back, I can't let her back in so easily. Some of my old fears have returned and I can't help, but avoid her because I don't want to let myself back in.

And I won't. I don't need to rely on anyone but myself. I'm going to stay that way. Friendship is overrated and has given me enough pain for several lifetimes. I don't need friends. And they certainly don't need me.
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*Hugs* Things in life can be sucky. I don't want to seem rude, bossy or anything! But if she's upsetting you this much, maybe it's best to talk to her about it. It happened to me when I was younger.

One of my friends said some stuff that upset me, and even though she apologized, she did it again. I was pretty pissed at her so I stopped hanging around her because I didn't want to put up with her crap anymore.
I know full well I'm a complete and absolute bitch most of teh time and I'm actually kinda surprised (and impressed) that you've managed to put up with me for so long. I know I wouldn't have been able to...

(If you don't want an apology, then don't read this, this is a bit more for me anyways...)

I'm sorry if I insultyed you personally. I have nothing against any religion I've ever come across, and I don't hate them. I may hate the fact that some of them are so darn close minded about some things and I definetly don't like being preached to like some poor savage that needs to be shown the light and salvation of God, but I don't hate them and there is no way in all the levels of existance that I could hate you.

I am sorry for being so f*ing unmanageable, my thought processes are weird and so badly fucked over that they reall aren't safe for me. And they most certainly aren't a single, tiny shred of good for my relationships. If you want to just quit knowing me, you can go ahead if you want, you've got every right to. And if you want to just come right out and punch me in the face next time I'm being more of a fucking soreass loser than usual, feel free to do that as well (I can't promise I won't duck though).
awwwwwwwwwwwww look at the reconciliation!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=) =) =)

I cant even tolerate myself...how do i get rid of that problem?