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So. I don't know how everyone is up with the news but. Bombay recently got hit by a terrorist attack and a good deal of it got bombed and a lot of people, killed.

This is my hometown. I grew up there. And while we've always had the worst of the worst hit us (riots, bans, strikes, floods, attacks, etc), I've always thought Bombay to be... almost invincible and able to stand up to anything. Even the train bombings didn't feel so horrible.

I... don't have pleasant memories of Bombay. I spent most of my life being ostracized by my school because I was a Christian, didn't speak hindi well, didn't care about what everyone else cared about. No matter how secular we may boast India is, we really are the most hypocritical and ruthless bunch of people I know.

And yet, this is my town. It used to be my home. I left it behind, purposefully because eventually, Bombay would have killed me. Hell, India would have killed me. I don't have any friends there, and if I did, they probably all left now. But that doesn't mean the people, my people, deserved this.

I don't know. It makes me really sad and I feel really guilty as a person because I'm not even an Indian anymore. I'm a Singaporean.

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I don't think there's any people in the world who deserve that. And you're allowed to be sad in your own way- don't feel guilty for how it comes out.
No. I certainly wouldn't wish it on anyone.

And I really can't help feeling a bit guilty.
I heard about it earlier this morning. Whether or not it's your hometown doesn't matter; it's still tragic, and it's okay to feel sad about it. I'm not Indian, but I feel grief for the people who died and for their families. There's nothing wrong with that.

My family left Kansas because, like you, they felt it would've killed them eventually. My parents grew up in harsh and broken households, with alcoholism and abuse, and so they left Kansas with my older brother not long after he was born. We don't go back there to visit our families that often, not just because traveling there is expensive, but because there's so many old wounds that would be reopened if we did. My parents are the black sheep of their families, and they prefer it that way. And yet, if something like what happened in India happened there, we would still feel sorrow for the people there, even though we left them. Because everyone has the right to live and live well, and to mourn. Neither of these rights should be taken away from us.

This may have sounded kind of jumbly since it's kinda late for me, but. [hugs]
You shouldn't feel guilty about caring. The destruction that had happened affected many, and it is your homeland, in a way. I'm hoping for the best for the hostages, and all the people who've been hurt there, physically or emotionally.
It's okay to still feel attached to the places you grew up, even if it's not your home any more. Things like that are always tragic, but they always hit harder when you have some sort of attachment to what's happening. [hugs]
I've been following the news in India nonstop since it started... it's so, so sad. I can't even believe it. I mean, I've never been to India, but my parents are Indian and even though I've pretty much always identified myself as an American, I still feel like this is happening to my people. :(
Hey, hon. Things like that affect the world community, not just the local community. I never know if this appropriate to bring up (but honestly, when else is it appropriate. I'm not comparing, I'm empathizing) but I didn't know anyone remotely affected by any of the 9/11 attacks, I don't live anywhere near Virginia or New York and I never have, but I still get sick to my stomach when anything is brought up.

It's not about what you should or shouldn't feel, or whether you have a right to feel a certain way. As humans, we are given the right to be upset about what's going on. And it is always always jarring when you see the name of your hometown suddenly spring up in a disaster context. I can't understand the scale of this, but I do understand a degree of that feeling.

Anyway, if you need someone to chat to, I'm around.
This....sounds exactly like me and Saudi Arabia. Pretty much word for word. What you're feeling is totally natural, at least, it's how I feel about Jeddah and my mom feels about Michigan, whenever awful stuff happens there. It's hard not to feel guilty or like some sort of a traitor, or that you were selfish for doing what was ultimately best for you, and it's taken me years to get over that feeling, but it'll happen.

You're a wonderful and caring person.
Oh honey. *squeezes* It's never ever wrong to care. I don't have a lot of happy memories of my old school but that didn't stop me from caring when I heard it was closing down.

When stuff like this happens, it doesn't just affect those who are attached to it, but to the rest of the world, too. It's natural to feel sympathy. It's human nature.