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I am vaguely frustrated with myself.

Okay, this is kind of untrue, I am really frustrated with myself, my lack of progress with a job, my lack of progress with anything and being hit with the proverbial stick of who's stopping me. Therapy this week feels like ridiculous overkill and while I know it's supposed to be helpful, I'm still annoyed for even needing it to begin with.

I'm also getting irritated with myself as a person and I want people not to deal with me because I feel like I might accidentally bite someone's head off or whining about how pathetic I have made my life. Same old, same old, really and I just have this needy itch of someone telling me I'm awesome or something ridiculous like that, be it RP times (god, it's affecting my RP pretendy times, what is this madness) or just in general. Which again makes me feel ridiculous for even asking. 

I want a life. I want to succeed in something and be meaningful. I feel I've lost all meaning and the only person who can get it back is myself but god I'm failing in that little aspect.

EDIT - I. I thought I disabled comments for this. Apparently I only selected don't email. A WINNER IS ME.

Sorry, all I can see is TIMMY IS AWESOME written over and over again.

You know I'm always, always here for you. You can snap at me (although, you know, I'd prefer not BUT THIS IS HOW MUCH I ADORE YOU) and also whine because lord knows I whine enough at you and things that are way less important.

And saying that finding meaning is a "little aspect" is like inviting the ocean to fit in the kitchen sink. There's that trite saying... "Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans". Lame, I know, but it's true. Just going and doing is the best you can do.

But I'm here for you and I can listen, give advice, or just distract you with stupid things. Whatever you prefer.
I'm not repeating what I sent to you. BUT IN SHORT: I'm always, always here for you and you don't even need to ask. I would be more than happy to listen, whether you need someone to snap at or someone to love on you or just listen to what you have to say. Though I'm sure I'm not the only one willing to do that for you. I get so ridiculous and insecure and you still talk to me, so it's only fair I do the same for you.

Stopping here, but I mean every word and I think you should know how much I adore you. You're awesome and I'm sure you'll find what you need. I wish you the best of luck and all my support, honey.
I can tell you nothing that you will not tell yourself.

But I am here for you. ♥
Timmy Timmy Timmy, guess what?

You are amaziiiiiing. I can't say it enough. ♥
I'm always free for whining, and I think you're pretty awesome. Sometimes these things take... FOREVER, it seems, I know. But it will turn around. ♥
[ puts head in your wide open mouth ] you can bite my head off if you want. I DON'T MIND. Same for whining or anything else you need to talk about.