I didn't think that as soon as I got him and start playing him, I'd be hit by the insecurity blues. It was a very weird and uncomfortable feeling for me and it got me even when I was playing Dean and Oz. I guess it's just nerves? too much excitement? A COMPLETE AND UTTER LACK OF SLEEP THIS WEEK? Who knows? I just feel insecure about everythiiiiiiiiiiing and god, I have so many awesome people around me, what if I fuck up badlyyyyy ahh. I guess the pressure of playing ~populah~ characters is finally hitting me. (I can just. never equate that phrase to me. It makes me confuzzled)

And Microoooo, what do I do about you? I'm pretty sure I'm apping Dean there (don't hit me katy I'll do tomorrow really ;;) and there's no force in the universe that can tell me not to app Thom, my clueless gay porno guy there. I've been wanting to play him for agessssss and telrunya,the light of my life is apping Damian and we'll start a gay club in micro and sob I'm excited for it :(. At least I dropped Shawn. That was a terrible apping decision. Even if he was pretty.

NOW IN OTHER NEWS. Deleted Scenes from "No Man Has Gone Before". I'm amused by the probing introduction. I should rewatch that episode (maybe Gary will appear in the movie!! and have lots of homoerotic subtext with kirk!! And Spock will run around with a giant gun!! god I love Trek ;;)