Daphne in the wood (bromantic) wrote,
Daphne in the wood
bromantic
  • Mood: content
I spent a lot of today feeling like the shittiest person on earth for screwing up so simply it was ridiculous. So I cried, vented my frustrations here and there, played the Xbox, and then curled up in the kitchen with a cookie and my dog. I have another therapy session tomorrow where I will discuss my problems of not being to accept... nice things! Or things in general. My therapist puts it down as "I am unable to feel I deserve anything" which, I suppose it's true! I did royally screw up two years of my life, that's not something that's easily let go, mistakes or not. Still, I'm not sure how to get over it. People doing nice things to me really make me break out in hives, you know. I'm not acting when I freak out, I really freak out. I often sit and cry and my hands shake because I'm a flaily person by nature and I don't know what to do with myself. It's... kinda sad in hindsight.

Went for the Soweto concert, which is an African gospel choir. It was really good! I think the measure of a good concert is when the performers are having as much fun as the audience. The last concert (SSO Christmas Concert) was incredibly enjoyable too. Also, I'm dying to see Sherlock Holmes. There's so much hilarious subtext in the trailers! It looks like tons of fun! I don't have any incredible expectations of it nor do I expect it to be true to the books (lol Guy Ritchie lol) but it looks like a blast.

Random book recommendation: EVERYONE READ ANDROID'S DREAM. It's possibly the most hilarious and enjoyable sci-fi book I've read in years. Lifetimes even! GOD SOMEONE MAKE IT INTO A MOVIE.

Christmas party with guests tomorrow. More chores for me sigh.
Tags: dear myself, earth to mars do you read me?, fml, geekery pokery, so not my day
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  • (no subject)

    My parents have been back for what, a day? And they have succeeded in making me feel terrible. Now everything is making me feel terrible.

  • (no subject)

    Me at Uni = Ahiru at Ballet EXCEPT I'M WORSE. Oh depression how I have not missed you.

  • The Adventures of Timmy and her Dick-headed Teachers

    Head Teacher: Kay you're in charge of the French board. Me: ... but I have nothing to do with the French department. Head Teacher: Tough. HAVE IT…