Daphne in the wood (bromantic) wrote,
Daphne in the wood
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So, if anyone is bothering to read my twitter beyond spamming it with live-reactions to old Trek episodes, I've been going through the normal paranoia feelings of sucking. The thing is, I know they're not true! But it has been accumulating of late and I can't really stop feeling it despite my very own logical understanding that it's not true. I know I don't suck! Yet I keep feeling that I do! Can you see why this is ridiculously frustrating and tedious?

Sabra scares me. It honest to god terrifies me and I never know what I'm going, am I stepping on people, I barely make it in time for games because I live on the other side of the world, I don't know. I am enjoying it but that doesn't make me any more ... comfortable with it. It's very different from any other RP I've ever been in! Mostly it's me trying to get a grip with it and honestly not settling in or not settling well, sob I'm not making sense anymore.

And idk my bff cfud, I feel completely out of the loop lately with everything and though I'm slowly pulling myself back in, I just feel irrational and upset and judgemental over everything I do and finding it harder and harder to tell myself that it's okay, I'm cool, if there was a problem someone would tell me and so on.

God, guys. I just wish I knew what the fuck was wrong with me.

Tags: cfud: we have zombies, dear myself, fml, meh :/, now can i get an rp tag?
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    Happy 2014, wherever you might be.

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    You know you have a good job when you spend hours talking to your boss about Lord of the Rings. I have a good job. Just wished it paid more though.

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    First off - I am alive - India still suffers from chronic bomb blasts - but the food is good. Thank god the food is good - I have a crazy alcoholic…

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  • (no subject)

    Happy 2014, wherever you might be.

  • (no subject)

    You know you have a good job when you spend hours talking to your boss about Lord of the Rings. I have a good job. Just wished it paid more though.

  • (no subject)

    First off - I am alive - India still suffers from chronic bomb blasts - but the food is good. Thank god the food is good - I have a crazy alcoholic…