Pairing: Homura x Goku
Summary: "If we must be sinners, let us be great sinners"
If we must be sinners, let us be great sinners
We are great sinners. From the moment we were born, we sinned. The mark of evil was the gold of the sun in our eyes. The ground we stepped on was our only comrade in this world. We were unlucky enough to live in the one above.
But you were never bothered by that. You were a child. Why should you be bothered about the colour of your eyes? Why should you care about the mutter and dark looks of those above? All you needed was the sun on your back and the fields of flowers to your horizon.
That was enough…for you.
We are great sinners, you and I. For the sake of a friend, you tore open the Heavens. Even now, it bears that gaping wound you left behind. Didn’t you know? They watched you constantly in that cave. Ever fearful, like old men hiding in their beds when the storm came.
The humans called them gods.
I think I was always grown up so to speak. I knew how long I was going to live. “Death is certain, time is uncertain” they say below. Even so, even from hearing those words spoken around me every day.
I wanted to live.
What was wrong with that desire I wonder?
Sin, sin, sin, our existences determined by fate, God and golden eyes. So we rebelled. I think you planted the idea in my head. You managed to carry it out so effortlessly. And we came down there, the place where you can carve out your own place in the world.
I think from the moment Konzen took you in, you had already established that.
Would you call that fate too?
I’d hate to think so.
I think underlying my wish to meet you, was the desire to see you. See what you have become. When I did see you, all I could think was “You’ve grown”. But you had changed as well. Gone was the desire of playfulness and happy days. You courted with your life day in and day out, managed to keep your pride and your sun.
That is enough…for you.
But it wasn’t enough…for me.
We are great sinners. We are the stain that people itch to remove off their clothes. But I think, you were fine with that.
I don’t think I can ever be.
And I don’t think I can ever let you be either.
If we must sin, let us sin together…Son Goku
My stomach hurts....